Happy New Year!!
I am very hopeful about this year! So many amazing things grew out of 2016. It was hard but there were changes I never would have expected. I grew spiritually into places I never thought I would venture into again. Faced my own judgements. Saw my shadows for what they are. I am stronger for it.
|This picture drawn by my wonderful mentor, Cindy Ella Rhodes Durkee, resonates so deeply with my journey of faith this year. You can find more work from her here: The Christ Within|
But 2017 I am dedicating myself to working on my physical side. I served in the USCG with flat feet. I signed a waiver to get in with them. During boot camp I had several stress fractures in my legs and feet. My feet have bothered me ever since. When I was grooming dogs a few years ago it got so bad I went to a podiatrist. He showed me X-rays and he was shocked at the "uniqueness" of my feet internally. His exact words were, "I don't even know why there is bone here." I have fallen into the bad pattern of "my feet hurt so I don't want to move, I don't move so I gain weight". It hit me hard this Christmas when my feet were hurting so much some nights I could hardly walk and my mom asked me (in a concerned, thoughtful way) if I thought my grandma's old walker would help me. I am 36.
36 and in bad shape. It hit me HARD that if I don't loose the extra weight I may not be able to even walk in 10 years. That scares me. I already have a hard time on our hikes. What if I can never go on them again? What is searching for hidden plants in the forest is no longer something I can do. It would crush me. Really CRUSH me! If things are going to change I have to be strong and push myself harder than I have before. Take better care of my own "house" and remember that what I do now will always show up in the future. Yoga, the right foods for my needs, walking more, prayer, study.....these are all the focuses of this year for me.
|My feet might not be normal but they are good!|
I thought long and hard about publishing this. I know there are a lot of "resolution: weight loss" posts but for me this is different. This is almost life and death for me. I want to share my struggles as well as my joys. And this is my struggle.
Along with sharing my struggle I want to share a ton more joy!! So this year I am also planning more herby goodness than last year. At least once a month but hopefully much more!! So stay tuned! I am going to work some alchemical work on my house this year!! THE ENTIRE THING!!
In So Much Gratitude!